me hypocrite

Felix said that i only dare to scold behind a person's back, when that person is right in front of me i will be most friendly as if im expecting some kind of tips.......eeerrr actually yah lar,weeks ago, i caught flu from my cousin who came to s'pore and stayed at my house, the worst thing was the flu came with a vertigo after effect...again.....n i was in the exam period....again.....then i was cursing and cursing him like nobody's business but whenever he phoned i sounded nice......
eh,.....am i somekind of hypocrite